remember the name

the calling out was never done in the least possible rightful manner.
yet i hear her. screaming from deep within under any weather.

i stared hard on the local tv set. no effort was needed in doing that.
i stared right through that. not on purpose but just the lack of focus that i had.

all i ever did, was to wait for a deed.
or for an answer. that will never falter.

the act of deceiving has brought me here.
i could go on beer.
but i've gone on to steer.
now off the track i will never veer.

who would've thought i'd come this far,
when i acted like i was behind bars?
nah, all i heard was rah tah tah,
on how im just a lucky fella.

we have trust issues.
you know we do.
ma bad under ma own cells and tissues,
for the wrongs i've done to you.

but think again.
who has it to gain when i go for fame.
i go through pain,
for the name of the game.
it's your name, his name, again and again.

hopes are never meant for the drain.
never in my context i shall claim.
anything less than 'your names' for my game.

i need a break, when i get a break.
but i get a bait, to draw me dead.
yet i hold on to my greatest take:
mankind is great,
because it is a dream that we try to make.
a special year ahead.
before that date, take a leap of fate.

checkmate.